Keep Your Head Spinning

Everyday, I do the same routine over and over.
Since my second semester in first year college was over, there began my oh-so-boring life. I'm back in my own house with the twenty-four hour internet connection, television, real food and yeah... i won't do my laundry again. With this kind of life, well I cannot deny that it is really cool but now, i feel awkward.

I've been away from home for ten months. I lived alone in a house with strangers. I learned how to clean my own room. To wash dishes. To do my laundry. To bla bla bla bla....
Too bad, my Mom told me I should go back home because my health is on risk. Oh well.. i felt happy but somehow, I realized being away from home will help me to...ugh, you know what I mean.

Now, I am doing nothing. I feel so dumb.

Defying TIME

Defying Time

I never asked something in return. I told you my words not because I wanted you to be like me… I told you those words because I don’t want to be stupid, I don’t want to hide it from you every time you are near.


Professionals told me time is infinite. There are so many clichés and wisdoms about time…that time is endless, time is a treasure and so on.
So, if time is infinite, how come some students and workers are being scolded being late? If time is infinite, why do they have to establish a law regarding curfew hours? If time is infinite, why parents give us the limitation to goof around with our friend? If time is infinite, why do the actors and actresses in the movie always say “we don’t have much time”? Even if this is absurd matter, soon, you’ll realize.
Why do they still use the phrase “take your time” if we always end up burdened with rude words or negative consequences when do not meet the time? If time is gold, why is that many are suffering from poverty? Why do they invent such words, phrases, clichés, analogies, metaphors or whatsoever if they are contradicting it with their actions? You see, it’s nice to have those “time concepts” in connection to our daily lives, but I just realized, time isn’t infinite. Time is just an imagination. Time is represented in numbers. Time does not exist…we were motivated that time runs in our lives. TIME IS A FANTASY.
Yes we have morning, afternoon and evening. We have the sun, the moon and the stars. We have day and night…and my point is, our body is designed to perform its different functions. Get that? If you’re hungry, you eat. If you want to sleep, you sleep. If you want to do anything, you do that “anything” of yours. Do we really need to know the time? Say, 8 in the morning, you must eat. What if you are not hungry or either way? Would you still force yourself to eat, or would you still wait until the clock strikes at 8? I mean, hey, is it really necessary? Time is infinite. Take your time. Time is gold. Then, we end up facing terrible consequences because WE DID NOT MEET THE TIME.

Life is unfair. Life is absurd. This life we have is what you call a fairy tale… and the ending? No one knows yet. Let’s wait for it.

Nanoseconds

I held my breath. I was thinking of it since the day I left from home. Been thinking of it 24/7 and it just suck because I knew that you... you're just one of the few stupid worthless things in the planet. Then, without any knowing... no assumptions or whatsoever, you came. again.

If L was Gay

If L was Gay inspiration: ALDRIN SHROOM

IF L WAS GAY, HE’LL CHANGE THE WORLD TO ITS HIGHEST POSSIBLE FORM
What if there are no lies? What if hate doesn’t exist? What if we don’t know feigning? Then the meaning of truth, happiness, love and honesty will be meaningless for us. But my point here is that…what if people will realize that being able to express what you feel, what you know right is not showing some superiority or perhaps inferiority? Then, there will be no more headaches.
Majority of the people I know told me I am weird. I got that. I am really weird. Why? Many reasons, maybe for you its normal and for them it’s not normal but that’s not it either…I am just me. If seeing the world as a big pot hole makes me weird enough, I won’t mind… I have my own perspective in my life and so with you…right? Some people just don’t get it because I know, they are afraid to tell the world who they are.
So here’s the thing. Here’s the thing I wanted to put here. If you know the anime manga series Death Note, you’ll follow this right away if not….err just read it. Anyway this will make sense to you and the rest of the world. Now, what if L Lawliet was gay? A friend of mine gave me an idea to create this one…he resembles my perception about life. I mean, he too, perceives the world differently as I do. Nevertheless, his life is dramatic because I saw the stiff zigzag roads he traveled when he told me the truth behind his odd words of life. Are you still following? I hope so. He sees the world in a way I can also see it in reality.
Why is it that today, many people tries to manipulate others conscientiously or not? Why bother to offer an ear to share heartaches when some out there wouldn’t really get your point?...and sadly, they’ll judge you in the end. Why do we need to pretend that we are someone that we’re not, when in fact we can do whatever we want in this world? Because we are afraid to be hated…to be a laughing material and to be avoided…maybe, but why? Can they not just accept the fact? Or who am I to be speaking like this… I’m a human. I have thoughts just like you but, this is mine.
Okay, let’s see. If L was gay, what would happen? What would happen to the world? Aldrin said, the world would be a bed of flowers (literary). That would be nice, right? So, if we all die, we will die in a flowery land.
If L was gay, what would happen to the Philippines? Aldrin said, the national costume would be bikinis. The carabao would be no longer the national animal…(actually, I forgot what he told me, so I wrote it that way.)
If L was gay then he’ll change the world to something we don’t see every day.

DEFINITE

It doesn't matter how fast or slow the momentum is...
I do not care if the law of motion will be defied. I don't care.
Now, I am beginning to state words that makes me wonder.

I need no effort.
I need no much attention but of course, i don't want to be ignored.
Like counting the stars under a morning light... absurd but you can if you believe that you can.

Everyday, I am seeing the world like i never existed here before.
I'm smiling...for the fact that I barely do it.
Maybe...it's flitting but what? are there laws? did I violate anything? If so, tell me... I won't hinder.

Don't ask me why. Someday, you'll know.
Someday, you'll be able to describe the taste of water.
In anyways, you'll understand me, if the feelings will be mutual.

I don't want to end like an epic failure of the year...
I am happy.
I am happy.
I am happy.

Yeah..I can move on

because i fall two good legs. functioning.. flawless and yes... i can walk. and move forward. no reason to lament over and over. no reason to be stuck in one place when pure lies exist.