All I can do now is to dream of you

I know we can never be...we can never fall into each others arms and hold the world's agony. I owe you a lifetime of comprehending a single thought of adoring you for an unknown reason. I don't know. I don't know what to say.


Maybe it's the law of attraction that keeps me seeing you everywhere I go. My heart is screaming over-joyed seeing you, smiling over me and talking with your eyes alone. I always shiver...always.


We aren't really meant to be lovers, I say. For the second, for the record, I've seen you with my greatest nightmare... you, walking with my nemesis...

Now, it's clear to me, that you are chained with an unfathomable creation that I couldn't break. I'm no superhero that can ever save you from this madness of my entity. All I can do is to share you the happiness that covers me wholly.


You are close, so close to me that I can even seize you and never ever let go of my grip...yet still, I can't. There are fortified walls and excruciating thorns that I can comprehend when I try to hold you.


I cannot just hide forever, I cannot just be there and run once in a while. I really don't know. I'm holding my breathe. I'm gripping on a sharp knife. I want to surrender. I want to run away...without you. I don't want to see you anymore. I don't want to talk to you. I don't want to be so deeply in love with you...but I can't. Everyday, I'm fighting the world. I am just loving you to the depth of my soul...



What now? All I can do now is to dream of you. I'm sorry.