If there are tons of things I need to do, I'd do it in a click. This past few days, I noticed I've been acting so odd. I'm following the house rules and I'm keeping myself very busy. It kills me when I waste my time. I don't even care if I don't have cellphone, I don't even care if I don't have money, I don't even care if I'm still awake in dawn. I don't know...
Last time, I keep on praying, I keep on dreaming that someday, sooner and yes later...any minute, somebody will come near me, the one that is good enough to be adored. I met two different faces in a single day. They were both good looking and definitely gentlemen. They told me how wonderful I am to exist in this world. At the moment that I felt flattering sensation, that any girl would surely pass out when they hear those kind of words... i back fired. I stood idled few minutes thinking...
I really don't need it. Really.
Maybe, I'm still trapped. I keep on dreaming of the past. Instead, I'm feeling the prickling pain that makes me feel that I'm that stupid. You see, it was there. The new beginning was there right in front of me but look what I did. Rejected them and mouthed my famous line... SORRY, I'M A TOMBOY.
I don't want to run. I don't want to be hiding here forever. I don't want to grow with pain in my heart. I don't want to...I don't want to wait for the equinox.
Tell me what am I suppose to do. I am trashed with so much aches. I don't want to linger in this madness. I am too vain.
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